In London, England, United Kingdom.
I am thinking that I will start a new site and will lock this blog soon and keep it as a page for other things than my thoughts.
I can’t believe it, every day and every night It’s gettin’ better with you outta my life It’s like I flicked a switch and now I’m feeling good
I am in love. I have a crush. I am excited.
All because I decided that I wanted to spend time with great people and just let go of the rest, no matter how much it would hurt in the beginning. I am so happy I’ve met the memory athletes, polyglots, artists and inventors. 2014 will always be the year, where everything changed simply because I felt that I wasn’t alone anymore. Not even close. And there are people who think that what I can do is amazing and I feel the same about them. I’ve found the others.
I can’t explain this past week. Who discovers a hidden world of memory champions and is drawn into it, finds out she has a third baby sister, helps her friend try to sort out a $2500 fraud, gets invited into mysterious clubs and almost breaks a world record in a week?
I don’t know who I am anymore.
And I love it. A lot of thanks goes to Idriz Zogaj and his amazing book “Minnets ABC“. An absolutely brilliant introduction to how you can remember almost anything with a bit of technique. It’s concise, to the point but most importantly – it’s interactive and engages you from the get-go to start writing in it and using your minds potential. I have a lot to thank him for and I have a feeling I’ll have even more to thank him for in the future. Amazing how a person can touch your life so much without even having met you. Lovely!
A beautiful introduction to his work can be found in his Ted Talk! Watch it here
19, Swedish/Mongol in the Hong Kong metro being all international and cool. I know, I’m like James Bond or Jason Bourne or something… minus all the killing.
I was supposed to be born the same date as Jesus but I decided to stay in my mom’s belly for two extra days. *advanced maths*
It’s four am and I can’t sleep and I have nothing to do. Girls love making lists so why not make one about 20 facts I’ve learned over the past 20 years? I’ll make the number sort of correlate with the age I learned it. TL;DR: I’m strange and that’s OK because it is becoming trendy to be strange. For real though, it’s weird seeing people be praised for the same scheisse you got bullied for in
middle school life. There’s hope for me.
1. Food is delicious. Rare steaks, mandarins, kimchi. I’m not going on a friggin’ diet. I’ll be paleo/slow-carb mostly but then cheat so much it can’t be taken seriously. I get annoyed when people see me not eat anything for a whole day like “DO YOU EVEN KNOW ME? I WILL EAT A GOAT TOMORROW!”. There is no risk of me going anorexic or bulimic. Food > being thin. But I’ll eat it when I feel like it, don’t worry. Also thin privilege and fat shaming are you serious like I don’t even… Please stahp. Eat food, read some basic books on nutrition and move your body.
2. Nice people are precious. My earliest memories are of being picked up from playdates with my cousins by my uncle and him just making me laugh all the way home and my mom teaching me how to read. My family is very nice and I think many a people will take advantage of that and have… But I’ve made a decision to cut off the people who seem to be hanging out with me because I’m nice and “will be of value in the future”. I am awesome and I will be even more awesome but you’re not awesome enough to hang with me if you’re using me.
3. Reading = magic. I remember the first words I read in Mongolian. Words starting with B like böörönhi bömbög (round ball) and I remember thinking “WHAT IS THIS SORCERY!?”. I still feel that way every day, especially when I read books. Books, unlike things on the internet, are often more well-thought out and you can almost understand the psyche of the author on a deep and sometimes creepy way.
4. Not everyone speaks the same language. Cartoon Network was only available in English when I was a kid in Mongolia… and here we are. Amazing how such small things can change everything in your life. I remember being able to say ‘apple’ in Mongolian and then saying it in English and then saying it again in Mongolian and just feeling like an epic wizard.
5. Sweden is a country that is not Mongolia. These are just the sort of things you have to learn fast when you move to a foreign land where everyone is tall and speak an off-version of English.
6. I like Sweden, though it is cold. I liked going to preschool where we got to “nurture” caterpillars into butterflies and then release them into the forest. I liked my teacher in the first grade because she had curly blonde hair and was nice to me even though I saw that she gave me three stars on everything except for “classroom behavior” where she had commented that I have a hard time not goofing around.
8. Animals are people too. As my obsession with orcas, dolphins and animals in general were growing I also accidentally started reading more and more about their ability to process feelings. So I only wanted two things in the world 1. A bunny 2. My acceptance letter into Hogwarts. When I turned eight my mom gave me the cutest gift a girl could ever wish for – a tiny tiny tiny bunny that got both a Swedish and a Mongolian name and stayed with me until I was seventeen.
9. Being Mongolian definitely has its bad-ass perks. Look at that picture of me riding a moose like I’m from some sort of fantasy saga. Imagine that sort of thing happening everywhere you go – MONGOLIA.
10. I’m a Photoshop God. Not really, but it is easy to think you’re amazing at things when no one else in your environment is doing it. When I was nine – the internet was so new that most people still wrote “www.” before the site name. I’M SO OLD. No I’m not, but I like to freak myself out so I’ll be more productive.
11. I love singing, music, art and languages. And I will forever not care what any body thinks of it.
12. School is mostly horrible but I have The Sims. I started gaming a lot and at some point around this age I started not doing my best in school because I realized all of the teachers had decided I was brilliant no matter what I did and the kids at school the opposite. So I pretty much just hung out with myself and my computer.
13. I’m very lost and it’s ok. I think most modern young women have had their fair share of consuming all of the books on the self-help shelf and then not followed through with most of the solid advice. Everyone was giving very extreme advice like “only live in the present” or “you will be a failure if you don’t have any goals” and I just took the middle way and realized that all of this information on this planet will make you feel very lost and it’s cool. Being cool with being lost means you’ll be very curious and eager to try to figure things out and I love figuring things out.
14. My parents were just people who had sex. I discovered this when my mom said some fact about the brain that was a little too on the 20th century science side for me and then it dawned on me like a… dawn (?) – the realization that my mother was just a person with feelings and friends and everything else before I existed. Albeit, I still believe she is one of the greatest creatures to have ever lived.
15. I’m attractive enough for someone to kiss my face. And it was amazing, especially since the only thing I could think about at that age was boys boys böys and the occasional thought “how do I not think of boys?”. Hormones are horrible and I distrust anyone who didn’t feel like the most awkward human being to ever walk planet earth in their teens.
16. Travel, eat, pray, love, work/study 4 hours a week. I read a lot of books the summer after my first boyfriend and I broke up and most of them were on the topic of “travelling is easy and if you’re not doing it you’re not living”. So began this part of my life when I thought that as long as I’m travelling I’m doing good… (I also developed a huge passion for soccer). Partly true if you adhere to the school of thought that the more you do – the slower time seems to pass and this was very true because 16-17 were the longest years of my life and now I’m aiming at making 2014 feel like a decade. I know what they feel like now that I’ve experienced two of them…
17. There is a God because I got to go to Kenya to a boarding school with a pool and kiss giraffes. Honestly, I don’t know what I was doing in cold Stockholm in a public school when I could’ve chased (literally) blue-balled monkeys around school a few days before my graduation on the savannah. (Re-read that sentence to realize there is so much win).
18. People are crazy. Keep calm and avoid when possible. I’m sorry but the only thing I learned from turning 18 in Thailand and accidentally buying drugs to bartenders is that people are batshit crazy (many things happened on the day I turned 18 but the story is so friggin’ incredible and incredibly long that very few of those I’ve told it to have believed me). After graduation I helped out at the family restaurant having to deal with customers and employees and I realized even more so that I’m not the crazy one. People are. *couple orders ramen noodle soup with yakiniku and I explain what it is* -> *I bring out the food* -> woman: “WHAT IS THIS? I DON’T EVEN EAT NOODLES!” man: “I’M VEGAN!”. *cough* Allegedly.
19. College is the best form of school ever and I’m good at it. Getting accepted into Stockholm School of Business made me feel at peace. I suddenly found myself studying things to a deadline instead of researching kitosis for hours for my own pleasure. Studying at an academy has also given me the immense joy of connecting the dots between things I knew on a shallow level and now having the information and the ability to prove my theories. The professors that I’ve shown my work on economic theory to have all found them very sound, but I seem to be lacking the knowledge necessary to present it in a scientific way right now (must learn advanced math or hire tech support to do it for me). I’m also grateful that I followed the advice of Derek Sivers and shortened my study time by taking the second-year courses on top of my first-year studies.
20. Making people, including myself, laugh is the best feeling in the entire world that has ever existed ever like ever is this sentence too long. Such humrou. Also, I’m bad at keeping my serious writing tone and making serious lists of “REVELATIONS” SO here’s a funny screenshot off tumblr that made me laugh irl. Seriously though, Dumbledore might’ve been the worst headmaster of Hogwarts ever. Also, bonus pic because I can’t help myself.
Bonus revelation about being “hot” as the young people call it: people are now nice to me from the get-go now that I’m le babe, but no amount of le babe will hide your weirdness and in the end the conservatives will run away in terror but you gain cool friends faster. Friends who can belch the alphabet and also send you politically incorrect but hilarious drunk philosophical texts at four in the morning. I love you.
Was watching The Hobbit when I realized 9-year-old me and 900-year-old Thranduil have some things in common… This blog is shit right now. There is no bad-assery, no mountain climbing, no Swahili, no drinking cows blood with the Masaai, no fermented mare’s milk on the steppes of Mongolia with the family and it’s not because cool things aren’t happening in life. It’s just that… there’s too much shit on this blog that is so epicly boring that I can’t stand it and I’m thinking about deleting all of it. And just do more elk-riding posts.
Life is as good as life should be. One of my best friends received a four thousand dollar scolarship this morning, to fund the making of a really simple program that could potentially alter the way we look at learning. Another friend opened up a t-shirt company called Florange! I got support and encouragement for different “business” ideas from both friends and Swedish entrepeneurs Isabella “Blondinbella” Löwengrip and Pingis Hadenius. I have two ideas for web-TV or regular ol’ TV that I’ve started e-mailing some partners about. Things are exciting and heading the right way.
The biggest lesson this week has been “You can’t wait to feel like it, because you might be waiting forever”. And if you wait long enough, you’ll be unprepared when that golden holy scheisse moment comes and you can’t do anything with it. Work hard on your goals and surround yourself with people who really support you. I can’t believe how many amazing go-getter friends I’ve had all along! And so many things are brewing in this city… Stockholm is really turning out to be the new capital of the world…
I’m such an awesome blogger, disappearing for days and stuff…
Things that are going on this week
! accounting exam
! microeconomy exam
Things that are going on next week
♥ a major trip overseas
♥ photoshoot for a magazine
Things that I should be doing
- doing all of the paperwork for my jobs
- studying better (quality > quantity)
Things that I am doing instead
A pic of me outside Stockholm Public Library
A week ago we tried K25 – a glamourous food court (the first one?). Our food fanatic friends recommended Lilla Vigårda for their awesome burgers so that’s what we went for AND IT WAS DELICIOUS! Can’t wait to go back for that garlic sauce… I took the original beef burger and it was great. I’m still ambivalent about eating meat, but the three guys who run Vigårda have good values so I trust that the animals had a good life. Making sure the animals had a nice life is the least thing we can do as carnivores.
So once we woke up on the boat on Sunday, we had some assignments for a competition. “Do a Spiderman kiss, switch clothes between a guy and a girl, do a little dance, take a picture with the captain…”. So me and Clarino decided to just go after the captain. It took us an epicly long time. We could also call this post…
To Find A Captain
Sunday, October 20th 2013. 11.48
We start googling for his face. So we know what to look for. And then we start running around asking everyone who looks like staff if they know where he is. They all answer in the way that makes you think we asked them to donate their left arm. We get shrugged off in every corridor.
12.20 Approaching Mariehamn
We head to the top level and are stopped by a fence. We see a captain! And then a second one with a great beard! We start waving to them like crazy. THEY WAVE BACK!!! Then they shrug their heads. But we keep waving. For an awkward five minutes.
12.25 Captain Haddock
We see a guy who might be the captain, or at least he looks like Captain Haddock from Tintin. We wave him over and ask if we can take a picture with him, but he gets all sad and says “but me? I’m just a simple chef!”. I feel bad, we should’ve said we wanted a picture with the chef.
12.39 The face of disappointment
After waving for another fifteen minutes and being ignored we decide to abandon our mission and eat candy instead.
13.00 Stalking the staff
Two very official-looking people stand in the hallway discussing important things in Finnish (or maybe the ending to Breaking Bad, I don’t know I don’t speak Finnish). We stare at them and follow until they notice us. We ask if they know how we can get in touch with the captain. The most helpful staffer tells us the captain and him will be having a meeting in fifteen minutes close to the information desk. THE LEVELS OF EXCITEMENT WERE DISPROPORTIONATE! So we sit quietly by the info desk trying to look normal so none of the other teams find out we’re on to something…
13.13 Meeting the captain!
“Was it the two of you who were standing by the fence waving?”. Clarino doesn’t answer because she’s in a hurry to take the pictures. I say (awkwardly) “hehe… yes… sorry about that.” It was one of the proudest moments of my life just because we had spent so much time and energy trying to find him haha. Then when we got to our group they were all like “cool”. We expected them to shower us with gifts and start dancing around us in joy.
We had our final dinner for the intro weeks of Stockholm School of Business, as I told you before… I was in a secret group of 22 new students doing cool things, so here are pics from that! Now… back to studying microeconomics and accounting.
Picture credit: Cecilia Eyem and Föreningen Ekonomerna – Stockholms Universitet
Lipstick from Kanebo! Anthurium is the favourite <3
Pic from big in Japan
Yey! I got three free lipsticks from Kanebo! Which is awesome because they cost $30 a stick. I’m not that much of a make-up user because I think lenses, lashes, moisturizer and a big smile does the trick for my face… I’m actually pretty bad at putting on make-up, but I don’t realize that until I see the party pics the day after… “I don’t always use lipstick, but when I do it goes something like this“:
There are those moments in life when you just look around and see all the beauty around you and you go “my life is so weird… and awesome!”. I had several of those moments yesterday with my friend Clarino / Thatswhatshesaid on the cruise to Finland from Stockholm, but that was mostly because we always ended up in such bizarre situations. I’ll post it tomorrow or later this week.
So this boat trip in Ibiza was from the bay off Sant Antonio to Cala Conta where we ate at a seaview restaurant and then relaxed on the beach. The pictures were just some random shots I took trying to capture contrast and colors. I like ‘em even though they’re very tumblry in the objects-from-a-weird-angle way. I love the ocean, water and sea so much I just felt so at peace and happy, even though I get severely seasick at times…
The party boat leaves at seven in the morning and it’s eleven now and I’ve done 2/6 of the questions for the microeconomy class.
Picture from the Swedish School in Kenya
When I don’t understand things I start googling them and when I can’t find what I’m looking for (90% of the time) I end up on tumblr.
When it’s close to midnight on a Saturday and I have four more problems to solve
When I see that the next question is split up into three parts
When I don’t even know where to begin
My finance skills at around midnight (I seriously almost wrote something along these lines)
When I read what I’ve written so far
I’ve spent this weekend in Stockholm eating delicious everything, working out, studying and watching Adventure Time with my love (watch eeeet, it’s on Netflix!) I love Stockholm, but sometimes I feel like we need some time apart and then I start thinking about spending the weekends in (for example) Kenya… So I’m totally going to travel in November!
Gotta go, my lovely friend will be here in a few moments for a pj-party because we’re getting up at an ungodly hour tomorrow! Why? To get on a boat with 270 other students for a party trip!!!
Pic from a conference at Carnegie.